Star Ka'at's Ramblings











{February 28, 2011}   Better

Frustration
Pure and plain
Dismay
Embracing and emptying

Hope
Draining and distant
Future
Fading and forever



{February 27, 2011}   Hope and Hurting

Trapped
Crying
Hurting
To see you hurting

Afraid
Uncertain
Worried
To see you hurting

Reaching
Holding
Praying
To see you hoping



{February 26, 2011}   Say What?

So much
Too little
Insanity
Time

Mystify
and sink
Terrify
and float



{February 24, 2011}   tired

so tired
ever tired
always tired
painful awakeness
robotic zombie functions



{February 23, 2011}   Beautiful Little Boy

Pretty little boy
So innocent
So embroiled

Sweet little boy
So curious
So wide eyed

Happy little boy
Beautiful laughter
Precious smile

Hold on to yourself
Remember how many love you
Cling only to Him



{February 21, 2011}   Look Forward

Open my eyes
To the beauty at hand
Take away my longings
For past and fantasies



{February 20, 2011}   New Friends

Share, repair
Laughter, delight
Surrender, learning
Loving, growing



{February 19, 2011}   Sure Unsure

I know you want to
I know I fear to
Don’t move the spaces
Don’t clear the blocks

Take it fast
Release me slow
So sure unsure
So calm trembling



{February 18, 2011}   Please, I’m Empty

Tired and spent
Empty and lost
What would I give
To be in your arms

Take me
Hold me
Never let me go
Never leave me alone



{February 17, 2011}   Remember Me

Blamed for things
I didn’t do
Held for things
I should be free

So much pressure
Expectations and desires
So many secrets
Silences and denials

Why won’t you take me in
Why can’t you take me back
I bend and break
You stand and block

Who poisons your ears?
Can’t you see?
Is your world so small?
Remember me?



et cetera