Star Ka'at's Ramblings

{December 31, 2010}   What Can I Do, What Can I Say

Why do my emotions run so deep
Why do I always feel your pain
Why does the hurt in your eyes
Echo so loudly in my soul

Why are we so far apart
What happened so long ago
When you changed so much
And closed yourself off

You have your own companion now
I have joy for you
Happiness because you are
Contentment, he is good to you

But it hurts sometimes
To see your pleasure
Things you scorned in me
Intense, scarred, pain

You say you never snap
You deny that you ignore
That my perceptions are solitary
What can I say

What can I do but love you
What can I do but tolerate
The things only I seem to see
Am I really so paranoid

I’ll stand by you regardless
Bloody, battered, bruised
I’ll protect you, life and limb
I’ll carry your heart and soul


{December 30, 2010}   My Brother, My Enemy

Anger burning deeply
Long resentment
No explanation
What trigger, what provocation

So petty, so childish
So spiteful, so empty
How could you
Why would you

How do I respond
To this fellow human being
With brotherly love
Over the hatred in my heart

{December 29, 2010}   Why So Sad Little Flower?

Why so sad little flower?
The day is over
Its just another day
No, so very much more

Laughter, memories, love
Family, old friends, new friends
Smoldering enemies…
Warmth, happiness, uncertainty

Why so sad little flower?
What brings the tiny tears?
What makes you tremble?
Why do you turn so far inward?

Loneliness aching
A longing with no name
Soul crying
Empty tears

Why so sad little flower?
Life brings joy and pain
If only joy clung as deeply
As pain tends to linger

{December 28, 2010}   For The Wolves And Rain

Longings of a wilderness heart
Locked inside a city bred body
Tiny clusters of overgrown yard
All the forest and woods ever known

Dreams and fantasies
Hunting, growing, surviving
Hand making much
Solitary guest in the home of the wild

Always pining, never knowing
Capacity uncertain
Would steel, convenience, and population call
Would trees, animals, and wind content

{December 27, 2010}   Snow Window

Open portal
Bright ringed
Winter framed

Condensed moisture
Frozen rain
Crystallized water

Delicate fairy dust
Icy dragon tears
Magic dust from the sky

So beautiful to behold
Deadly to invite
Nature true

{December 26, 2010}   Weightless Eternity

I close my eyes
Moment, forever
All I know is gone
Bleak emptiness

Was there to hear?
Whisper passing
Nothing recognized
Deadly silence

What left to feel
Cold, hard, sharp
Sensations absent
Even dreams

Beyond morning
Deeper night
No pull, no push
Weightless eternity

{December 25, 2010}   Winter Part, Warm Heart

Gray morning
Snow curtain
Deep stillness
Creatures in hiding

Ice commands
Life draws inward
But fights on
Warm in heart

Bitter battles
Torrential banks
Fires burn
Triumphant survival

{December 24, 2010}   Refracted Soul

True blood
Full soul
Brilliant colors
Refracted and fractured

Strings sing
Voices croon
Open graveyard heart
Sardonic smiles

Wolfish manner
Howling destiny
Purest desire
Deadliest intent

{December 23, 2010}   Revel Eternal Blur

Motionless blur
Time spent
Dizzying stability

Suspended stillness
Glowing darkness
Dimming brightness
Expended concealment

Broach the breach
Ride the storm
Live the death
Revel the life

{December 22, 2010}   For The World Away

Sleeping late
Dreaming sound
Time away

Foreign lands
Mystical beasts
Magical beings

Fantastic forests
Trees ever green
Snow stillness

Sun wakes and sleeps
Moon and stars follow
Water spirits whisper

Wake sharply
Blur disorient
Empty longing

et cetera